Back from Uganda

Wendy and I returned from Uganda on the 5th of this month.  An 8 hour time difference does things to your body and mind one can't explain until you have experienced it.  By the time we left Micah's home (the pastor of UCF), we reached our girls and pillows 30 hours later.  The human body can only take so much, and I'm afraid Wendy and I were at our personal limits.  But now that a few days have passed, our wits are back and we are refreshed once again.

So what is verdict?  What are the Gilliland's going to do?  These are the questions we have been bombarded with since our return.  Wendy and I fully expected to have an answer for our family and friends before we even stepped foot back on American soil.  "They deserve to know", I thought, so we need to give them something, we need to tell them something!  That's when frustration began to set in, and the doubts shortly followed.  One of the many lessons we have learned thus far in this journey is to never try to decide ANYTHING while you are under extreme exhaustion and are consuming airline food.

What are we scared of, what is making our faith falter?  A simple question deserves a simple answer.  We both fear being alone and so far away from our loved ones.  Did I mention it takes 30 hours get back home?  We fear our girls won't cope well.  We fear the days of regret, we fear the moments of depression.  We fear that God might have us there for the long haul.  Why do most people that GO put a time limit on there time away?  Would they so the same in a new job opportunity here in the states?

BUT...

We serve a God that brings peace even in the midst of valleys, and for that we will build our faith upon.  We will trust Him with our all, no more sprinkling on Jesus to our daily lives.  Faith never looks to far back and never to far ahead.  We will walk where He calls, and for now He is calling us to be faithful with what we know and what we have.  We have three precious lives that are all gifts from our Father whom loves us more than we could ever love each other.  We cannot fathom His endless love.  There is freedom in giving Him your all.  Your all includes your all.  Everything must be His, even your fears, even my fears.